Racism is weird

Im in a cab with an african cab driver. Nigerian i believe. Will find out in a bit. Not likely born here. Amazing though, to look at him, and hear him, and interact with him, for anyone to respond in a hateful way. Or even to think him that different aside from language. Where does this nonsense come from?

The stress of the complicated

Im not really a believer in the idea that simple and easy are better and indicative of anything special. That said, the complicated always seems more stressful, and more mentally exhausting. Uncertainty is a huge part of life...but dealing with it lingering on every touch and word can make you want to wish it all away.

Levels of quiet.

I can't really quiet the chorus in my head. Angels and demons oversimplifies it with a false cast of black and white. Still, it is amazing when you can find someone who makes the crowd in your head pause and almost silent, calm, relaxed. That is when my face to the world and the pool inside me reflect the same.

Best. Part of. Thanksgiving.

Listening to Big Black's "songs about fucking" while waiting for family and friends to finish spinning near the beach in Florida.

Thanksgiving

November hasn't been what I had hoped for, but there are always things to be thankful for, and a good old Feldman family recharge sounds nice.  I need it emotionally. Hate saying that, but it is true.

History

Sometimes it seems like everything I do and like is informed by my obsession with history.

The West

As my plane descended today toward Ontario, ca, I gazed out the window westward, toward sunset.  I pretended I could see the Pacific and that it lapped at the farside of the mountains that reached toward the seemingly slow moving plane.   

William Gibson

One of my favorite writers happens to be such a personable person to hear speak about his own writing and writing process.  He isn't modest per se, but confident and unarrogant about his successes.  His science fiction literacy surprised me, yet his breakdown of old influences made perfect.  Most specifically Alfred bester. 

The chapter he read from the middle of Zero History created an urge to dig into his recent work again.  And to see it differently.  Will do so while waiting for the trade paperback.